I've spent the entire day trying to understand what is really happeing to me? after 9 years with my husband, watching him put all the burdens of our family on me, this last straw has truly broken my back. he has been with the same co. for the past 9 years. he has sat back and allowed them to cut his salary 3 times. in june 2007 he was approached by another division to work on a new line. he was so impressed that they chose him, it never dawned on him they approaced him because he was known for being simple minded. we spent the past year in pure hell trying to keep from loosing our home and barely making it. now he has been approached to become a manager by the same division he left. i praised God and was so excited i just knew this nightmare was over, not. after his interview and 2 weeks of back and forth he called me so excited about it being official. i just knew he was going to tell me he's finally getting paid like a "real manager" should. instead, like a little child, he showed me his offer letter. not only is he not making was he is now, it's far less??? but he's so excited that he's a "manager" it has not phased him he just put all of his family in deeper hell?!?! my entire mind and body is numb. i feel like i'm married to the dunce in the class. yes, he's degreed, yet, has no sense of business and more than that he's aware of them using him like a pack mule. but the only thing he's interested is, "they want me". i feel dupped and the whole world is laughing at me. i'm so embarrassed to be married to someone that is more concerned with everyone likeing him over providing for his family. i'm disabled yet, i'm diligently seeking employment, any kind of work to help save my family. i'm happy for him getting this promotion [title only] but it's hard for me to trust him to provide and protect us anymore. we were seperated for several months but we came back together to try again, but this lack of stability and security has left me completely unable to depend on him.

i ask that someone would please for me to know what to do? i want to work and care for our 3 duaghters without being dependant on him. i've lost all trust in him. he's always been the child in our relationship. he's always look to me to take care of everything, but i tried to just appreciate and respect him for who he is. but his lack of maturity has caused us pain on top of pain. and now how can i continue to be with a person who is more intersted in recognition and being part of the "big boys" club while allowing his family go hungry. Father, God, please help me, save my family and don't allow the enemy to devour me. heal my body that i can work again and live again, please help my husband...in the Name of Jesus, amen, amen.

father , grant understanding and console broken dreams and disappointment and help us to focus on you and your plans for us for you have plans to prospers us not to harm us.. I pray for strength and emphathy and ability to overcome the cognitive rationale whicvh can leave us feeling so invalid. grant this family peace and joy and open door to breakthorugh jobs for the husband to provide. we pray as we seek you earneastly you will grant us the desires of out hearts. forgive us father and bless this family and wife abundantly In jesus name I ask, AMen

BUT always remember that GOd is your ultimate source not you and not your husband. I have been fasting and praying all of Sept. and God has revealed himself to me. I use to think that my husband was the provider, the source when in actuality he is not- Put your trust in God. Allow him to show you how He can supernaturally provide for you from known and unknown places. Allow he to truly captivate you and allow him to be first in your marriage, in your life. The Lord is my shepherd and I shall not want. The enemy is trying to destroy your marriage, family. Don't allow him to come and steal it away from you. YOu have already separated in the past and he will use divorce as the next step. God is so good. Don't focus so much on the money- God will provide no doubt about it. The way you are talking about your husband is wrong. Sorry but it is- how do you expect God to move on your behalf? I know you feel frustrated but don't allow the enemy to sneak into your family. Ask God to change your heart and then start praying for your spouse and that God will change his heart too. Get the strife out of your home. Rsetore peace and love back into your home. I will pray that God will do all this and pour out blessings into your household. He wants you to prosper but don't be fixed on it so much - don't let it consume you. God never fails- he always provides.