Flesh and blood didn't reveal to me the true meaning of carrying the cross of Jesus Christ. I have prayed and prayed, yet never getting what I prayed for,at least in the way that I had expected them answered. But God's ways or not our ways, for he wants us to suffer like he suffered, that's why He tells us in John 16:33, these things I have spoken unto you, that you might have peace. In the world, you will have trials and tribulations, but be of good cheer, I have overcome thew world.I have to fight the good fight, as Paul did and others."No pain! No gain". It's tough, but its fair.We have to be transformed by the renewing of our minds,we can't think or operate from the mind of the world.We have to take off the old man(flesh) and operate in the new man(spirit) Now I can finally see why the Lord tells us to seek, and we shall find, knock, and the door shall be opened.This has to be a persistent search(hunger and thirst) for righteousness.The Lord will reward those who diligently search after Him. Thank you Lord, for pouring out Your Spirit upon me with these revelations. Amen.

We're proud of you, Michael. Heaven admire your honesty, the angels rejoice to hear you pray. Continue to pray for those in need, and the Lord will reward you.