Some days everything seems to go well but most days do not. I feel days go by that God is not listening to me or had forgotten me. Maybe punishment for some bad things I have done in my life... I understand that, but why make life so unbareably hard ALL THE TIME. I am a single father trying to raise 2 girls who are at that age where fashion, friends and fun seem to be more important than me... well it seems like that. Being a single parent I can not afford all the necessities they want but try my best to provide for them... thing is, it isn't even close to what they get. I need a prayer sent down for me to find some financial wealth that will provide my kids with the things that all others seem to have... and so that the creditors do not come knocking for more money as I don't have any. I am depressed.... and it bothers me knowing there are those who seem to find good fortune wherever they turn and me, misfortune. Why can't God smile whole heartedly upon me? Why? Some days I just want to disregard him... thinking he is always doing this to punish me. I am a good person and I will help anyone who needs it... so why can't I get that financial help that I need? Why can't he smile down and say "OK son, todays your lucky day!" but instead, I feel he purposely inflicks hardship upon me... probably laughing at my reactions and maddness that overcomes me when I see no good in the situation.
I know I am blaming him for my problems and I am wrong to do that, but what else is there I can do? What can I do to become a positive person... to have an upbeat attitude and financial freedom? I see no light at the end of the tunnel. Its depressing and I am no fun to be around at this time. Sorry for the rambling and what seems like a cry for simpathy... but all I am crying for is just a little help now and then.
Its hard to pray to him as I think he is not listening anyways.... I am in a big bind and don't know how I will ever get out of it. Thanks for hearing me out.

I would like to say that I had three children and was raising them by myself, I too had thought many times that God was mad at me for being bad and did not want me, but that was the devil and today I know that. God created good things, and it is what we do with them that count, times may not be easy, but God will never leave you nor foresake you. I have 21 grandkids now, and I am also in recovery, I just graduated with my BA and I do not know what I can do, or where I will end up, and I am on disability too. I can walk, talk and heard and see, sometimes the pain in my back is so bad that I just want to die, but that is not what I really want I just do not want to feel the pain. I had many hard times with kids, and it did not matter to me, which parent raised the kids, it is not easy now, but I put my kids first. I worked with people that could afford to buy clothes and shoes and go out when they wanted to and yes at times it hurt--but you know what it pasted too. I learned how to do what I needed to and not what I wanted--live always looks better when you are looking in--one day I decided that I could do what everyone else that I was around did, and I got high--that is a hell that I wish on NO one, I thank God that he brought me out of it all, life is still _______life on life terms--------nothing I did changed that and all the clothes and money did not change the way that I felt. I no longer worry about that stuff, I worry about getting to heaven and what I will wear there. That is what counts now, my kids grew up and have their own families now. If and when I want I can buy me something, sometimes and that is mostly for Sunday services, hold on and keep praying it will get better, even if it does not seem like it now, do nothing that you will regret later. God loves you and so do I, and thank you for sharing your struggles.

God doesn't punish you. You need to accept Him into Your life and give all your poblems to Him. Then you need to release your problems to him fully and walk in faith and love. The feelings you have are those of the devil, he is trying to tell you lies to keep you from believing.
Father God, touch this person right now and give them the peace to come before Your throne and accept You as Lord and Saviour. Father God, show him the way. We pray this in Jesus name, Amen

Thank you jazzy for your prayers... May God Bless You!