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I am asking for prayer, I am struggling with smoking and losing weight. I know that this may seem a small thing to many, but I know that I have to stop and it is so hard for me right now. I am in the Master's program and I am praying that this is God's will for me. My sister is ill right now and she too is struggling with smoking, she was in the hospital this past weekend. My uncle has cancer, my grandma is in the nursing home, my mother has heart problems, but had a by-pass and is doing well and I thank God for that. I feel at times I smoke just out of habit and other times I think it is just a force trying to pull me into a world of hell. I hate it and I am asking the Lord to take it away. I also am stuggling with the church, the way I was raised to believe in God and much of what I see happening now in the church is so differtent the love of members and the community is not there anymore. Everything is about money and when you do not have it to give, I do not feel a part of the church. I know that the Bible says to give 1 tenth and I try but sometimes I fall short and I feel bad about it. I want to learn to trust God more and to know that he really does forgive me of all my sins. I get struck sometimes, normally I believe that the Lord that I serve is forgiving, loving and kind. Yet lately I have felt that I am not worthy of his love. Show me the way Lord
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