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I pushed the wrong prompt on my computer keyboard and...sent an unfinished message...but I do still send my blessings to all on this Prayer Line.
Dear Heavenly Father...You know all that I am grateful for, and underserving of, all you have bestowed on me, but my sisters and brothers in Christ don't know.
I spent Thanksgiving, Christmas, and all the days in-between alone...and drunk! Stephen left me and went to spend the holidays with someone he, in the past, had sexual relations with.
On October 27th, 2004 I was arrested for a DUI, (my 3rd in 14 years)...on Thanksgiving Day in a stressed-out, depressed, drunken state-of-mind...I totalled my new Mustang by rear-ending a Metro bus without even applying my brakes... (sustained burns on my face from the air bags and permanent neck injuries... on Christmas I drank myself into a stupor and Stephen brought this woman from upstate Florida to have me arrested for being in our home against a restraining order "they placed" against me. On December 28th I paid $200 (deposit) to move into a 3/4 women's home (for alcohol and drug abuse) thank you Jesus for providing me with a job for 2 weeks that allowed me the financial ability to make this move and, $500 to an attorney to handle my DUI case.
Lord, Stephen "rescued" me from the "house I moved into" (they stole over and over again from me) however Lord, you gave me the courage on December 28th, 2004 to sit in an emergency room for over 12 hours before being admitted for a voluntary detox that they would not grant me after 20 hours and sent me away. Lord, with your mercy and the courage you granted me... I am now back home with Stephen..I am 15 days clean and sober by the grace of God I have an offer on the table for a new job as an Executive Assistant which will render the finances I need to continue to pay my attorney, pay Stephen what "he feels" I owe him and a chance to start 2005 anew.
Lord, I know you heard my prayer on New Year's Eve whilst celebrating at our church Calvary Chapel Fort Lauderdale. Lord, I once again wish to ask you to take all the pain, anguish, guilt and feelings of unworthiness I feel due to all that happened in 2004. I am begging you again for forgiveness, to fill me with the Holy Spirit and continue working in my life Lord.
I pray that I do not have to do jail time for this DUI and that they will grant me a "hardship license" to drive to work when Stephen cannot take me. Lord, I also pray that you continue to keep Stephen from his addictions...(he is free of alcohol and cigarettes as of Jan.2nd but keeps threatening me with his possibly using alcohol, marijuana and cocaine...Lord, please....help me to continue to help him)!
Lord I love, adore and praise you however, I have to admit...I am afraid of relapse, self-destruction (i.e. job, sobriety) please Lord don't let me falter yet again.
Please watch over my brothers and sisters in Christ...and, those who have not yet come to know you. In Your Precious and Holy Name I Pray....Amen.
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FATHER, YOU CAN HEAR THE CRIES OF YOUR SAINTS. YOU CAN SEE OUR HEARTS. YOU ARE EL ROI, THE GOD WHO SEE ALL. FATHER YOU SEE OUR COMEINGS, YOU SEE OUR GOINGS. YOU FEEL OUR HURT, OUR FEARS, OUR PAINS. WE NEED YOU LORD AT ALL TIMES. WE NEED YOUR STRENGTH. FATHER HELP US TOO STAY ON THE RIGHT PATH. NOT TO GO LEFT OR RIGHT. KEEP US STRIGHT ON THAT NERROW PATH, THAT LEADS TO YOU. I LIFT UP BOTH KYEL AND STEPHEN, LORD YOU KNOW BOTH OF THEIR HEARTS. I PRAY THAT YOU WOULD OPEN UP BOTH OF THEIR UNDERSTANDING, ON WHAT YOUR WILL FOR THEM IS. FATHER, I SEE A NEED FOR BOTH OF THEM TOO GET HELP, THROUGH SOME KIND OF TREATMENT CENTER THAT IS CHRISTEN BASE, SUCH AS TEEN CHALLENGE. OPEN DOORS FOR THEM LORD. PROVIDE THE FINANCES, AND THE DIRECTIONS THEY NEED FROM YOU. FATHER BLESS KYLE WITH THE FAITH SHE NEEDS TO TRUST YOU WITH. LET HER FAITH IN YOU CARRY HER THOUGH, TOO THE END OF THIS TRILE SHE IS GOING THROUGH. ALLOW HER TO HAVE VICTORY IN YOU. THANKE YOU LORD JAHOVIA FOR ANSWERING OUR PRAYER EVEN BEFORE WE ASK YOU. THANK YOU LORD JAHOVIA FOR ALLOWING THIS WEB SIT TOO BE HERE SO WE AS A FAMILY, A BODY IN CHRIST CAN GO TOO FOR PRAYER. THANK YOU FATHER FOR OPENING UP DOORS FOR ALL OF US TOO HELP OTHERS OR TO GO TOO FOR HELP. WE GIVE YOU ALL THE PRAISES AND ALL THE GLORY. IN JESUS NAME AMEN.
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