Please don't give up just yet! Remember we have a date in Heaven to go flying together when we get our angel wings! Beverly, you have been through so much. God knows how much. My problems and trials don't even come close to yours. Remember how we said when we get to Heaven we will show our battle scars proudly and God will say "Well done, good and faithful servants!" Sometimes I feel like giving up. Sometimes I feel like God is SOOOO far away. Then someone says something or something happens and I don't feel that way anymore. Sometimes I begin to pray for someone else and my own problems don't seem so big. God will bless you with peace dear friend! You have never left my thoughts and prayers all of this time. Has it ocurred to you that the reason you have not been able to e-mail me is the devil is preventing it? You and I together have always scared the wits out of him! He doesn't want that to happen again! Keep trying to e-mail me!!! My addresses do work. Except for the old hotmail one.
I miss my dear friend and prayer partner!

Cassie, Until you've had this illness, it's really hard to explain and I'm so sorry. One minute your yourself, and the next, the world is coming to and end and everyone and everything has left you, abandoned you forsaken you.......the voices, the nightmares, the mood swings, you know. It's just really hard for me. God knows my heart and he knows that ANY TIME HE GETS READY, I'M READY FOR THIS TO BE HEALED FROM ME COMPLETELY.!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't know why, for what reason it's happening to me, but the enemy is attacking my mind like never before. I'm doing the best I can, baring all I can bare and just really trying to make it from this day to the next. I'm not giving up. I never would in Beverly's right mind. It's those danged voices that keep interfering in what I know is reality. It's hard to tell a million people you know? But what the heck. I guess that's a million prayer warriors praying right? Anyway, I'm ok at the moment and thank God and His angels for holding me up and all the prayer warriors who prayed me through this one. Thank you for always being there for me. It's been a rough year. Thanks. I gotta go at the moment but I sent you a test e-mail. I will back to praying for others soon, I just gotta get myself back right, in the right mind with God first. I don't want my prayers hitting the ceiling, I want them going to God. Love and prayers, Beverly