Prayer Request

Jenny was talking of suicide last night. When I went to call 911, she snapped out of it and asked me not to do that. Maybe I talked her out of it, or maybe there is something with family or God that she still relates to that holds her back from really doing this horrible deed. I have prayed and anointed our place and her and me with blessed water and blessed oil a number of times, and I feel that I really have done everything I can do up to now. I will continue to do so, and please guide me how to do so every second of every day, Lord.

This is satan's response, his attack on and through her, to her needing to heal from alcohol and adultery now. Once and for all, Lord God Adonai, please bind and vanquish satan in Jenny's life and my life and stop all of this evil. No one here wants this temptation and evil to continue. Please stop this now and let the good thoughts and sobriety dominate Jenny's mind, persuade her to let them in, and really help her healing and our healing now.

Only You, Lord, know how much more of this to allow to happen. But I beg You to help stop this now. Please keep the breaking off of the contact with the priest and deacon who seduced her permanent now, and please let her see that she must not think of suicide now that this contact has been broken.

If she has started drinking again, please stop this now. If she hasn't started drinking again, please keep her away from drinking.

Please help me cope and do the right thing in response in all areas of my life, help me do all of my jobs and be really guided by You in this. Please protect and help our sons and the rest of our family.

Please guide me in moments of crisis. If I really have to call 911, please give me the strength to do that.

I refer to you as my dearest brother in Christ (and otherwise) because Frank, the sad fact of the matter is that...i am your Jenny...I can tell you every next move or emotional attempt she will try again and again. I do not mean to sound uncompassionate ....on the other hand I am being more honest than I care to admit.....I am Jenny....I always will be..just as Jenny will always be Jenny....you see, we are alcoholics with very low self-esteems, promiscuous (to try to fill some void that happened long before we had a chance to stop it on our own!!!).
Jenny and I will ALWAYS be alcoholics....being capable of being physically and emotionally abused, we don't care to be...we have learned to believe that is what we deserve...not always by those we love dearly (although that is sometime the case) but by those that know we are weak.

Frank, Jenny and I have a disease...it is called alcoholism which carries a whole "heck of lot of other negative diseases with it (how we feel about ourselves). Frank, I am now 44 years young, blonde hair, blue eyes, 5'0", 100 pounds healthy still with a brain and the only reason I tell you that is that looks are deceiving...i have had this disease since I was 11 years old and no one will believe it because it has not shown yet!!!

Here are some more facts... I have been "Baker-acted" since 13 years olds probably over 45 times...I have attempted suicide and threatened probably as many times as that!

I pray for Jenny and you...I hear my life's story every time I read your prayer requests.... God Bless you both from someone who knows, cares and loves you both!!!

Hey, I just applied for a job on-line as a secretary for a Christian prison Ministry...please pray for me...it has been a dream all of my suffering life to help others!!! God Bless. Kyle

This life we have been given is a "special gift" from God. I, too, have thought that death would be easier. But "what is easier?"
Dying or living. For the brief time I've been reading these emails, I've learned we each have problems. But, for some reason, God has placed us here to help one another. Tell your wife, "Jesus loves her more than He loved his life." He laid down His life just for her. He didn't think about who He would help, He just did it.
I'm so glad He did! May His love sustain you!