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THANK YOU to all of you who have lifted me up in prayer. It means more to me than you will ever know. Though I hope someday in heaven to meet and personally thank each and every one of you.
I ask again for your prayers.
I recently found out that my husband's heart problems (he has hypertrophic cardiomyopathy) have increased...for lack of a better term. I don't know to what degree...because he won't tell me. I only know that he has been to the doctor (when I don't know), is changing his diet (to cut out red meat), and has been getting dizzy. He won't tell me anything more than this...and I know it's simply because he wants to protect me from worrying. Little does he know that, as his wife, the less I know, the more I worry. Please keep his heart and his health in your prayers.
I also ask for your prayers for our marriage. I had been receiving signs of hope from God, and my husband and I were making (at least what I thought to be) wonderful progress (praise God). Yesterday morning we spent some time together, and just laughed and had fun. I left to spend the day with my parents. I left their house around 9:30pm and prayed on my way home. While I was praying...I THOUGHT I heard God say something to the effect of "your husband will not be there when you get home, pack your bag, and return to your mother's, he is with another woman". At the time I didn't know if it was God...as, like anybody else, there have been many times where I thought God was speaking, and it turned out not to be God. However, I arrived home to find that my husband was not here. I have tried calling him so many times I lost count. I've left 3 voice messages, sent 2 text messages...and still I cannot get a hold of him. Of course, given the state of our marriage...the first thought to jump into my head is that he's with another woman. But, then worry creeps in and I wonder if he's been in an accident, or if his heart gave him fatal problems. I've even started calling hospitals...but we live in an area where the number of hospitals is seemingly limitless. It's close to 1:30am right now. I'm so tired, yet so filled with anger and worry that I can't sleep. Right now I don't know what to think, or what to do. Please pray for me...for us...and for him.
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Lord, we thank you for letting us find each other through prayer. You know what is inside of our hearts Lord. You know our pains and heartaches--especially with our marriage. I pray for JM for what she's going through right now. She needs you Lord.
JM, say this prayer at night I hope it will work to ease your pain.
Father, I need you, tonight especially. Fogive me for being anxious. You are the only One Who can take care of tomorrow, so I give tomorrow to You...its problems and decisions, everything that I cannot handle. I willingly choose to live today facing tomorrow with Your help and guidance. I thank You, Father, for the triumph of this night as You set me free from needles anxieties. In Jesus' Name, Amen.
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