My wife of 18 years has been in prayer for some time hoping that I would wake up and change. I was not aware of the depth of her concern. I was saved years ago but only started going to church last year...a 'deal' I made with God if he would let her biopsy come out negative. The Holy Spirit has been growing in me which I think triggers the enemy to step up his game. My wife has decided to move out because she can't take it. The whole experience has been a spiritual awakening that I believe will point me so much closer to God. And I believe at this point that the only way that she will come back is when I have become much more like Christ and am glowing like an ember. And I can't proceed with "getting her back" as a motive. This is definitely a spiritual attack.

Satan, I rebuke you in Jesus name and command you to take your hands off my marriage and my relationship.

Jesus was crucified, buried and in 3 days was gloriously resurrected. All things are possible with God, the only true power that has ever existed.

I ask you and pray to you Lord Jesus to loose into me and my wife the spirit of love, unity, and joy according to your word. Amen.

Friends and brothers in Christ, I ask all of you with all my soul, please pray for the restoration of my marriage. Our marriage will forever stand as a testament to the Glory of God and a cornerstone for many, many brothers and sisters to follow. If Paul could be saved then our marriage can and will be restored.

Lord, I surrender my marriage to you. I surrender the outcome of this present separation entirely to you. I trust completely in your ways. I give you all of my fears, concerns, attachments, longings, despair, emptiness, grief, regret, guilt, confusion and pain. I submit my urge to control, manipulate, judge, find fault, blame and criticize. I give you my tattered soul and my ongoing process of beating myself up over how I ruined everything. I hand over my desperate desire for restoration in exchange for your divine care, guidance and blessings. I cannot fix anything. You make all things new. I know from the bottom of my heart that your eventual answer will be the right answer. For eternity, I gladly hand over control in this and all situations in my life. You have saved me, the wretched, unworthy man that I was, so that I will glorify you in everything I do and with everything you have bestowed upon me. Make me the Godly man that You have always wanted me to be. Lord Jesus, help me become a mature, passionate Christian man. Mold me into a balanced, caring, sensitive, ambassador of your divine healing. Sharpen my ability to feel other's pain and suffering. Show me who I need to help and care for. I listen for Your voice, I obediently follow Your commands. Show me my errors so I can continue to repent. I accept your terms of surrender. I seek to walk with you at all times. There are no words that can possibly begin to describe Your grace. I ask that you bring peace to my wife and daughter. They never deserved the evil things I said and did. Because they are Christians, I know that you will eventually show them Your glory starting with how you delivered me in front of them and throughout the remainder of my life where I am certain that you will use me as a formidable tool. In your precious name I pray with all my heart and soul. Amen.

1 God, you are my God.
I greatly long for you.
With all my heart I thirst for you
in this dry desert
where there isn't any water.
2 I have seen you in the sacred tent.
There I have seen your power and your glory.
3 Your love is better than life.
I will bring glory to you with my lips.
4 I will praise you as long as I live.
I will lift up my hands when I pray to you.
5 I will be as satisfied as if I had eaten the best food there is.
I will sing praise to you with my mouth.
6 As I lie on my bed I remember you.
I think of you all night long.
7 Because you have helped me,
I sing in the shadow of your wings.
8 I hold on to you.
Your powerful right hand takes good care of me.
9 Those who are trying to kill me will be destroyed.
They will go down into the grave.
10 They will be killed with swords.
They will become food for wild dogs.
11 But the king will be filled with joy because of what God has done.
All those who take an oath in God's name will praise him.
But the mouths of liars will be shut.

I have never heard of BPD. Interesting. Good to know about the BPD. I reviewed this. Might you want to check out with Dr. Kevin Leman, to get a quick read one or two chapters in a book at B&N or Borders stores with a good seat or chairs. Check this out, Read the book of "Sex Begins In The Kitchen" Find about about Birth Order inside the book what Kevin trying to say about the birth order how we were influenced before we were married. He is a great psychologist and been researched in birth-order dynamics.

I learned something. I don't blame her my wife or myself. It is something the Holy Spirit helping us to changed inside and learned to keep the vowed because marriage is so source of joy, the place where something begins. I thanks God for Gary Chapman the writer, reading the book of "Hope for the Separated" Also Stormie Omartian too.

Read the book only when you sensed it because everyone are different. Just like what Pastor Jentezen Franklin say about Right People, Right Place, Right Plan, learn to know the voice of God's.
I hope that I help this to share with my faith you, not mine, His blessing. So may I have the blessing because I want to give you this information.

The Holy Spirit is guiding me so much now. He is showing me all the things that I have done to cause my present situation. The good news is that one of these "things" set my salvation in motion as well. I am submitting more and more every day. This is the only recourse The only recourse. Anything short of total surrender will miss the mark. We must put all of our faith in God and no where else.

Peace to you and may God bless you in ways that you never expected or imagined.

brad

Thank you Jim, local library had a copy and yes, God speaks loudly through this book. Thank you so much. Last week, God instructed me to read some of Greg Smalley's books and I recommend all I have seen so far. God has blessed Greg Smalley with insight about marriage that, once understood, can offset much of the enemy's slithering. Praise God.