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Hello to all:
I am a single father who is currently saddled with large debt made worse with some poor investment choices that have caused me to plunge into even deeper debt that appears to be insurmountable. I essentially was lied to by some investors and drawn into investing a large amount of money that I lost. Some of it was monies I had while others were loans I took out.
Up until this point, I always had money in my pocket which meant I had the freedom I so cherished to take trips with my son, eat at the best restaurants, take vacations, etc. My family always looked up at me as being the wise, responsible one to ask for advice on matters of finances Today, when I went to buy a $1.99 drink at a drug store with my credit card, I was declined, because my credit card had reached its limit. I then fell into a state of deep depression realizing that I was essentially broke. I am quite scared because even though I grew up in a lower to middle class environment and by no means privileged, God had blessed me with financial wisdom up until this point to make it and to build up a good life for myself and my family. Now I can't even afford a soft drink and have so many obligations it is sickening. I can hardly sleep or eat. My only source of income at the present time is from a restauraunt that I own, but the economy the way it is, I am barely able to cover expenses.
I have not told my family of my great financial loss, partly because it is embarrassing and because I feel that I would be letting them down. I however, know that God knows my problem and in due time will get me out of my situation. I have been in a various types of problems before and the Lord has always pulled through for me even when things seemed impossible.
Rather than feeling bitter, I have chosen to seek forgiveness from the Lord for making poor choices. I in prayer have also forgiven my deceivers who have caused me harm and have essentially blamed myself. I feel being humble before God in my difficult situation, will bring me favor in the eyes of God.
Tomorrow is my sons birthday, and I thank God that I found enough money to buy him a nice gift and a little more to take him to the movies.
I know realize just how blessed I am in spite of my depression in how much God has given me. I have my health, my family, food on the table, etc.
To those of you in a similar situation, dont despair or even consider something dumb like taking your life. Just take time to consider the blessings you possess and realize that there are so many people out there with so little. Instead, always praise God no matter your situation. He will always be there in your darkest hour and shall never forsake you as long as you trust and obey His word.
God Bless All
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