Dear God & Everyone

I have been helping my girlfrined now on her Loans since last year. Her estimated loan was of the total of 40,000 to 45,000 US DOLLARS (w/ different interest rates.) As for the history, she was separated w/ her husband when we met. The story was, she got impregnated and to save face, 10 years ago she moved in with the father of her child. She wanted to learn to love the man but unfortunately they broke up. For some reasons her ex husband is unemployed for over 5 years. So my girlfriend furnish all his shortcomings for the sake of their two kids. She worked abroad because she wanted to get an annulment easily. And because she wanted to earn for her daughter's college. While her ex husband in the origin country. Giving this unfortunate situation the kids are with him so she has to send the money to her ex husband. The case is- because she is working alone supporting all the needs, she got bankrupt. FLAT BROKE. But we had the relationship 1 year before she revealed that she is getting into something worst. She does not want to include me in her miseries that is why she tried to break up. I insisted and told her that I am willing to help in my own ways. Oh Merciful God! Where heavens will I get 40,000 US Dollars? I tried to take loans, but ended up with nothing. Until I decided to propose a business with my former boss. He gave me some cash and I started to think about what is the best to be done. My girlfriend that time was trying to kill herself already. She was cursing her husband for what had happened but what can we do now? It was all been done. I let her feel that I am here for her, that I love her so much no matter what. She is returning the love yes, but really.. we are in a drastic situation. I opened the business and half of the money was paid interms of her loan. Everyday banks kept on threatening us that she will be going to jail.. etc. The thoughts of those seems to kill me. I could not have enough to save all those loans. Neither she can. I dont know. God understand what I feel that I only wanted to do something for a person that can never be repayed. It is not about the gratitude, it is about the true love I feel. I am not trying to have a monument here as a martyr because the wasted loans was spent with her ex husband and kids. That I should not be carrying on with her miseries because they were enjoying the money before. All she could do is wish to turn back the time. But there's no truning back. Dear God... I can't run full the business because half of the money had been payment for the loan. I can't do anything than to pay them because we are running out of time. My business.. her loan... our families... the police... my investor... my life... my love. God, i only have a clean intention to help the person I love.... have the heart to hear my cries...