Thank you family...I cannot even write the words that I usually write...I did get the job...thank you for your prayers. Stephen has left for the weekend regardless with no real "congrats" to me and will be with an ex-lover. Just when I thought I was doing well, I feel alone in my being blessed and someone I love to share it with.

I start Monday, thanks again family, I still feel so alone because I have no one to share it with.

Thank you Jesus. I am reaching out that I do not allow this bad relationship to take me back. Lord, I know You and You alone have brought me this far. Lord, instead of the person who told me he was my best "cheerlearder" aka Stephen... he walked out the door this afternoon after slamming down 3 beers (while I am trying to stay clean and sober), then smoked a cigaretted and then put marijuanna in his pants pocket while he is going to pick up his mother (who has no idea there are drugs in the vehicle) and lies to me about his whereabouts when he gets up to N. Florida except that he will be spending the night at an x-lover's house.

Is the devil in my heart and home now?? Please I am about ready to run again because I have been made to feel unworththy.

I am hurting so bad right now when I should finally be allowed to be happy.

PLEASE PRAY FOR ME

Dear Kyle, You are not alone! You have just shared your good news with everyone who has been praying for you! We are all very happy for you. This could be your ticket out of this mess. It will take time. Stephen probably only cares about his drugs at this point so don't feel too bad about him not sharing in your joy. He is to be pitied. He is in bondage. Chained to an addiction.

Dear heavenly Father, we thank you and praise you for granting Kyle a job. Lord, please strengthen Kyle to perform this job to the utmost. Make her a real asset to the people she works for. Help her to save enough money to make a new life for herself. I ask this in faith, believing without doubt, in Jesus' name. AMEN!

Lord thank you for blessing Kyle with this job. Please give her the strength she needs to focus on it. Please allow Kyle to focus on her job and use her job and paycheck to get out of the situation with Stephen. Lord allow her to find a wonderful place to live that she can afford and to make new friends and when she is ready send her someone special to be in her life. Give her peace about being alone and help her use this time to sort out her feelings and become closer to you. Amen